Barb’s Blog

Wow, I haven’t written in my blog for a long while.  Sorry about that.

July has been an up and down month for me.  I was in Regina (2.5hr away) and was on my way back.  I had an urge to call my mother on my drive back.  She was with my grandmother who hadn’t been feeling well, flu perhaps?  I asked my mother to ask my grandmother, lol, how my grandfather and grandmother met.  My mother said oh they met at a dance I think.  I said no, ask her.  My mother said I’ll ask her when she’s feeling better.  I then pleaded no mom, please ask her now, I have to know now!  I was almost desperate to know.  She did ask and I could hear my grandmother in the background answering.  They met at a friend’s house, this friend had 6 children!  I then went on to ask what happened next?  Did my grandfather start to follow her, did they write, phone, etc?  My mother said I’ll ask her tomorrow when she may be feeling better.  That’s when I said, tell her I love her and hung up the phone.  This is when I began to cry on my drive back from Regina to Saskatoon…Tomorrow never came.  My grandmother died early the next morning.  I flew to Nova Scotia that evening.  I cancelled all my appt.s and everything I had planned.  I stayed overnight in the Toronto airport, can’t find a good hotel these days!  I went back for my mother, not really for my grandmother.  My grandmother is ok, doesn’t make it any easier and yes I do cry but only for myself and my family left behind.  I stayed for a few days and came back home. 

On a better note, I’ll be on a few radio programs for the month of August and September.  I don’t advertise these and I suppose I should, however, I’ve been on a ton of radio.  Search my name and I’m sure a few past shows will come up.  Here are a few upcoming radio programs.  If you wish to have me on a program, just let me know and hopefully I can make it happen.

CROSSROADS PARANORMAL - Radio Show 

Wednesday, August 24th

930pm EST

INNERVIEWS WITH KIMMIE & STEVE - Radio Show

Tuesday, Sept. 23rd

1pm EST

CATACOMB PARANORMAL TALK RADIO

Monday, October 27th

8pm EST

 

MISS ME - BUT LET ME  GO   I Believe - diamond rio

When I come to the end of the road

And the sun has set for me I want no rites in a gloom-filled room. Why cry for a soul set free?

Miss me a little–but not too long And not with your head bowed low.

Remember the love that we once shared

Miss me–but let me go. For this is a journey that we all must take And each must go alone. It’s all a part of the Master’s plan

A step on the road to home. When you are lonely and sick of heart Go to the friends we know And bury your sorrows in doing good deeds. Miss Me - But Let me Go!

~ In memory, Mary Cecilia Singer
1920 - 2008

Today I reflect on Father’s Day.  As I type this my husband, father of three, is off to the zoo with our two oldest daughters to watch the zoo keepers feed the animals and then have brunch themselves.  I await their return!  My own father passed away a few years ago, I don’t remember the exact year as I chose to try not to…although I remember the exact day and time of the phone call from my mother.  My father has a massive stroke on his way to work December 11th.  He then remained in a coma for 10 days until we made the decision to turn the machines keeping his physical body alive.  I remember all the details as if they happened yesterday, his body fighting to stay alive and breathing…watching as his soul lifted away while I could hear my voice pleading for him to stay.  I also remember the Christmas present’s that still awaited him…this event changed my mother’s life, he was her life.  I miss him yet still feel his presence ever once in awhile.

For all of you who have lost a Father….I’m sorry.  I can not say I understand how you feel as each of us have our own story!  But I share in your loss.  Remember to leave nothing unsaid, be sure to tell those around you exactly how you feel.

Don’t think of him as gone away,
his journey has just begun.
Life holds so many facets,
This Earth is only one.
Just think of him as resting
from the sorrows and the tears,
in a place of warmth and comfort,
where there are no days and years.
Think of how he must be wishing
that we could know, today,
How nothing but our sadness
can really pass away
And think of him as living
in the hearts of those he touched
for nothing loved is ever lost
and he was loved so much.

“I look upon death to be as necessary to the constitution as sleep. We shall rise refreshed in the morning.”     ~ Benjamin Franklin

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I am back from Regina.  Was a long couple of days but I’m glad and feel very accomplished that I have reached as many people as I did.  There are not too many consultations that I have with people that greatly affect me.  Not to be mean, but there is part of me that I have to disassociate my work from my emotions.  Just as a doctor has to disassociate from their clients.  However, this past weekend I had encountered a couple of ‘tough’ sessions.  It’s very emotionally difficult to bring through certain loved ones who have crossed over that you can just feel the pain in the living.   It hurts physically and emotionally.  Or those sessions with the living who are what I call ‘lost’, because no matter what you actually say…they may not be at a place to ‘get it’.  But I say everything I need to say and spirit needs to say, because some day down the road they may ‘get it’ and the change will begin.  I always tend to worry whether this work is what I’m suppose to do,  just like everyone else I guess who take a good look at their own stories.  The other day I sat down with myself in the dark and asked, “what I can do to help, to change the world, to inspire, to make people happy, to motivate”.  The answer I got was:  ”There will be those who will agree and there will be those who disagree.  There will be those who will try to defeat and persecute.  Keep doing what you’re doing, it would be no different if you were to change your life for others.” 

So I am left the in the same place that I began.  The most important thing is that I am happy.  There was a time in my life that I had to my life, yet what I didn’t understand at the time is that life keeps changing.   

The following are some of my personal sayings that I’ve learned over time.  We all know them, but the hardest part is to actually live by them:  

• Don’t make things harder than they have to be.
• Who needs enemies when we see them staring back at us in a mirror…be kind to yourself.
• We are all individually powerful!  We can change the ending of our own personal story.
• Stop living in the past!  Don’t take offense but I don’t care what has happened to you yesterday or 10 years ago…what’s important is what happens tomorrow.  What are you going to do…resist or yield?
• There comes an age with our children that we have to parent differently.  They are adults and must make their own choices and decisions, they mostly want support and encouragement.  They’ll then come to the correct choice without pressure.
• Stop caring about what society wants or expects…you’re the only one who can take care of you.  Trust yourself!
• You can work on trust by trusting yourself first through your actions.
• Listening to your intuition can give you the means to depend on yourself rather than rely completely on others.

My favorite quotes from my personal journal:

“If you are going through hell, keep going”
- Winston Churchill

“You can never cross the ocean until you have the courage to lose sight of the shore”
- Christoper Columbus

“Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall”
- Confucius

“To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that’s all”
- Oscar Wilde

“You don’t get to choose how you are going to die. Or when. You can only decide how you are going to live. Now.”
- Joan Baez 

“To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best day and night to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle any human being can fight; and never stop fighting”
- E.E. Cummings